the heidi files.

the heidi files.
If you write it all down it doesnt exist...
wait it's 1984 come to life
we willingly freely and almost readily provide our most inner details served fresh and with precise amounts of truth, envy, and wrath.

I lead an interesting and full life, which I purposly complicated with a family. I make 10,000 lists, stay up too late almost everynight, love NPR and W Magazine and am a lover of beautiful people...I am a lucky girl with insightful means, watch out becasue I will surely surprise you.

"We all grow up someday, we might as well know what we want" [little women]

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

can it be forgotten

how can i stay put?
play along
i cant even begin to let it all go.
why are you screaming.
and when did we stop talking.
close down. drop our ears in puddles of blood.
broken heart. I see promises I cannot fullfill.
But i want it. I want this.
I look at us.
Fuck.
Tonight.
Can we make it out, with preserved hearts, and brains intact. or are we destined to end up how started, confused, dropped, and let go of.

Will I see you, again?
Will we drift away from time we don't own anymore?

The time cannot show me anything that you have not already given me in this starved life of broken time and wondered hearts.

Tuesday.
3 o'clock. hearts. diet cokes. mixed tapes and notes of times we will never repeat again.

I see you sitting on my steps. Broken wine cork and brown carnations.

I look at our high heeled source of pain and I cannot see me again.
Let the love go. Let my heart go. Everyone is joking. I cannot.

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